at first my friend diagnosed it as post holiday blues…and that may be why life and work seems so slow and unbearable…

the symptoms…have taken a turn for the worse…I spend many waking moments imagining how I could possibly escape from the life I live (dw, I say that in a practical sense, as opposed to a suicidal sense)

it’s almost a decade since high school graduation…looking back I see how much has happened and how much has changed…but yet how much that has stayed the same. I acknowledge that I have experienced much, but now realised that I have achieved little and THAT is the depressing part~!

what do I do?

what would you do?

….can you guess which country this is?

What is santa bringing you this christmas?

…but that doesn’ t mean that you love them any less….

Guys with ironed shirts, with frayed necklines…no attn to detail.

Ironed shirts with a pattern of creases on the back…he got a seat on the train…while I didn’t~!

Ingredients:

Rice (frozen/fridged overnight….frozen cooked rice can keep for a LONG time)

Chinese sausages (steam and then thinly sliced diagonally)

Shallots/spring onions

2-3 Eggs

Soy Sauce

Sugar

Sesame Oil (sorry)

Chicken flavoured seasoning powder (sorry)

Oil

Corn (not traditional, but adds a nice sweet crunch)

Method

1. Heat the pan and add 1 tbs of oil

2. Finely chop the shallots (dispose the stringy part of the root)

3. Throw the white parts(where the onion like flavour is intense) in with the heated oil and save the rest for later

4. Simmer the shallots in the oil for a minutes before adding the Chinese sausages

5. Once the oil from the Chinese sausages starts to come out, add the rice and cook/stir until the rice softens.

6. Then add 2-3 tbs of soy sauce (depending on the brand you have an the amount of rice you’ve added), along with a tsp of sesame oil, chicken powder and sugar.

7. Beat the eggs and push aside rice on the pan to make room for the eggs so that the eggs will have direct contact with the pan, and not just soak among the rice.

8. Turn up the heat up and pour the beaten eggs on to the pan, and as the egg cooks, mix it in with the rice.

9. Turn off the heat.

10. Sprinkle the remainder of the shallots and stir it into the hot rice, and lightly cook the shallots using the residual heat of the pan/in the rice mix.

…Serves as much people as you’ve prepared rice and Chinese sausages for…

… Is that possible?

If at first you don’t succeed, try, try, try and try again, but what happens after your tenth, twentieth, a hundredth try?

How long can we keep pushing ourselves to look past our previous failures and pretend that they didn’t matter?

Being complacent, is that giving up? Or is that the optimum level of happiness attainable without risking the hurt of trying harder, and failing further? Are you risk adverse? Do you like to gamble the odds?

Ever wonder why the odds are always against you? Or do they just seems so, because we often take it for granted when things are going our way?

Am I really asking question? Or making statements?

Wandering to find my soul…